I quit

Yes, I have quit my job here in Hyderabad. I had no other option. Moreover, apart from professional reasons, there were some memories from Hyderabad that were hounding me and I thought it would be better for me leave the city altogether. So, the end of this week also brings with it the end to my stay here. This Sunday, I am leaving for Pune. While I am excited about going to Pune, I am equally sad for leaving Hyderabad behind; the city that gave me more than I expected. However, life needs to move on. I hope Pune embraces me the way Hyderabad did. Wish me luck.

End of the story

I know you had left me, what I didn’t expect was that you would never look back. I wanted to be present at the most important day of the most important person in my life. But, sadly, I wasn’t invited. I am sure you had reasons to avoid me and I am not complaining either. Just that, though we were strangers when you got married, I thought you would at least write me five lines thinking of the five years we were together for. But then, you kept your word- “Never” really meant “never”.

Now that our story has finally reached its end and I couldn’t give you anything, I wish you all the happiness in your life ahead- may all your dreams come true and each moment bring with it a reason to smile. Good bye.

Let there be light...

I know I have lost you. It’s been months since we last spoke and a year since we met. You have moved on and waiting to get married. On the other hand, all that I have been doing is trying to forget you, only to think of you more than the previous day. I have shed tears, have desperately waited your call, have checked my mail box ten times a day to see if you have sent anything, have jumped off the bed to see if the new sms came from you, have got up every day with a hope that may be you will look back to see if I am alive or dead-only to be disappointed every time.

But things will be different from tomorrow. Though Holi was colorless, Diwali won’t be dark. Tomorrow I will light my life up and I will light it so brightly that atleast for a few moments, your memories become invisible. Tomorrow, I will drink, I will laugh, I will shout. Tomorrow, I will start my life once again.

Bitten by reality

I know I had made her clear of my plans much before but I also understand that doesn’t make me innocent. All that has happened was a result of our mutual refusal to accept reality. On my side, while I had been preaching to be practical, all I practiced was exactly the opposite. But then, reality finds you sometime or the other and my encounter with reality happened before hers. So, while I have prepared myself, she is finding a little difficult. I understand it’s a difficult time for her. At the same time, I am thankful that she has decided to stand by me even though she is not convinced of what I am doing.

Life is contrastive. Everything that you do not want comes to you without any effort and everything that you want asks for sacrifices. Now, it’s time for me to make sure that our sacrifices do not go waste.

Life...

So the day finally came-I am not her boyfriend anymore. My relationship with her has always been beyond the term boyfriend and I never bothered if I was her boyfriend or not. But today, not being her boyfriend anymore makes me sad. As everything that has been happening in my life recently, this one was also expected. What I didn't expect was the fact that it will hurt me so badly.

Now it's time to go home, drink badly, shed some tears and pray for forgiveness, knowing very well that I cannot be forgiven.