Life...

So the day finally came-I am not her boyfriend anymore. My relationship with her has always been beyond the term boyfriend and I never bothered if I was her boyfriend or not. But today, not being her boyfriend anymore makes me sad. As everything that has been happening in my life recently, this one was also expected. What I didn't expect was the fact that it will hurt me so badly.

Now it's time to go home, drink badly, shed some tears and pray for forgiveness, knowing very well that I cannot be forgiven.

The game of life

A broken relationship,
An abased position at work,
A fallen health,
A close to zero motivation level,

….that’s where my life stands today.

Four years back when I left home, there was nobody to see me off. My adrenalin was running high and one fine morning, I just left. The only thing I took with me was the dream of making it big. While I have achieved most of what I had set out to achieve, all this have came at a cost- my life is shattered. Not to mention, the very achievements I was once proud of are mocking at me now. I’m losing the game.

I know the journey ahead is not going to be easy but I will bring my life back to track. I will get myself all that I deserve. I know I have to take some extreme steps which will make a lot of people sad, but I don’t have any other go. It’s time to take life head on.

The moment of truth

You can never hide from truth-it will find you, in most cases, at really bad times.

I knew what I did was wrong. What bothered me more was the fact that it was against the very principles I had set for myself. I knew it will hit me back sometime. But, as time passed, I thought the chances are low. I was wrong, the time came yesterday.

It’s not that I was surprised. It was very much expected. But still, my eyes were in tears. It was one of those things that I knew was coming but I didn’t want to face. But then, you can’t really hide from truth for long. Another lesson learnt from life.